Stoked

Well, after receiving all my gear, I'm pretty stoked about Sacramento. I look pretty strange with the Farmer John's wetsuit, but I can't complain. It was a free rental. I got all my gear pretty much ready to go. I gotta just wait, which I think is the hard part. I'm so ready to just adventure. Geezs, its bugging me these past few days. I'm aching for something to happen already, and its been a pretty slow lately. Ahh, WHITE WATER RAFTINGGGGGGGGG. That's all I could think about, and food. I haven't been eating well lately, even when I'm home. Geezs I gotta develop a better habit of eating.
Danny and John came back today from their mission's trip, I'm pretty stoked to hang out with them soon too.
Anyways, my gf is probably reading this. I'm going to miss talking to her for next few days. I'm not going to bring my cellphone, well if I do, its only for emergencies. One of these days I'll finalize my drafts that I have been hording up.

Stanley

Summer Update; Accomplishments?

So I had plans and goals for summer, but I'm just looking back to see what I've accomplished... How sad, I only finished 1 thing on my list, and that was the easiest one! Oh well, I might have re-update that list after some careful thinking.

Anyways, I'm just watching my dog, Totoro, and wonder if he's happy. He sleeps and naps in the afternoon, and is up all night. That's usually when my family is asleep. I wonder how he keeps himself entertained. I guess I'm thankful my life isn't like my dog, but I feel pretty bad for him sometimes. I guess I'll take him out for more walks and stuff, so he isn't such a sheltered dog. Poor Totoro, he feels like a little brother sometimes. I love my dog a lot, he keeps me company when I'm up writing in my blog.

I'm glad I have plans for Sacramento, it gives me hope. I think I'm pretty much set to go on the trip. I might hate it a lot, but I might love it as much as she did. I'm curious. I'm really stoked nonetheless, never been up to Norcal before, so this is a first. I actually wanted to go whitewater kayaking because it seems more intense, but I misread the description. I actually youtube what it looks like, and it seems something families attend. I saw little kids on the rafts, so it can't be too extreme right?

Anyways, summer starts now, and I'm a bit anxious.

Stanley

Riverside

Well I finished studying for my final and all, I should probably get some rest and wake up early to head to the library to study a bit more. I'm not too worried about it, I think I got it. Well I studied what I could, I guess that will be enough.
On a sidenote: Thank God I found some people to hang out with during the summer. It made my stay here in Riverside so much less dull. My roommate doesn't talk to me much, because he's so absorbed in his own things, but I'm glad I found a group to just chill with for the remainder of the summer. Friday night use to really suck at Riverside, I'd rather be at home than in this desolate place, but this Friday night at least was a lot better.
I'm stoked for tomorrow, after my final we are going to celebrate at TGIF with a Jack Daniel's free sampler plate. Gosh I love slickdeals. But yeah, I'm feeling great, even confident for anything. If things get to dull at home, I might end up going back to Riverside to just hang out.
AACF people are in the end just my acquantainces, except for a select few. Wish it were different, but a group that big, its no surprise they leave people out at times. OH WELL.
Haha, I wish I met this group earlier, would have made Riverside's Summer SO MUCH BETTER.

Stanley

Final

I have a final tomorrow. I haven't studied yet. I hate it when I do too well in the midterm that I feel too confident for the final. I'll start studying, in 3 hours.

Stanley

Discovery

Redbox at Stater Bros. (finally!) But:

1. I'm moving out soon.
2. Summer at Riverside is practically over.
3. I'm not going to watch movies by myself.

Stanley

I need to write

But nothing happened today.

Stanley

Retrace - Anberlin

Encouragement

I just finished reading Danny's blog just recently and man that brother is really encouraging. Past few days I was letting my hobbies consume me, I was so busy doing what I wanted that I was so tired to do my devotions. I was straying from my path, but praise the Lord, because even if my brothers are thousands of miles away I'm still encouraged to see them growing. That in itself has helped me to grow, knowing summer is temporary.
Summer is definitely a time for self-growth.

Stanley

I can't fix the last post

I really liked that video, but I can't get it to fit the page, how annoying. Maybe I should just make space by writing a lot, but I don't have anything to write about right now. What a problem. It'll go away in a couple of days, if it doesn't, oh well. I need my sleeeeeeep.

Stanley

Don't change!

Today's Agenda

1. Street Fighter 4 with arcade controllers; it was a lot of fun. I'm going to beat you one day, Anjii.
2. AACF, saw Yvonne, I'm surprised to see her there. That was fun. I'm sad I won't be able to see her next year. Just a feeling, but its alright. Wish her the best, she's still the same around me, I wonder what she is like with her Frat.
3. Night swim session at the pool, it was closed, but whatever.
4. Carls JR. I was always against eating burgers and fries this late at night, but I did it anyways. I feel like crap right now, and I feel fat. But at least I'm full. I didn't have time for dinner today.
5. Alysia is blogging now, well she'll never read this so I could technically call her fat and get away with it. She's fat by the way.
6. I'm sort of glad today, even if I didn't go out and have an adventure at Downtown with Alysia, I'm glad I still had people to hang out with. I'm going to definitely get Street Fighter 4.
7. I'm going to be up late, can't sleep after I eat. Going to make sure I change up my devotions, I'm skimming past it too quickly, gotta slow down.
8. I want to write more, but I'll just end it here, maybe I'll edit it when I have a chance.

9. Stanley

Mike

I had the longest conversation with Mike today, and I came to a conclusion that I'm content with the friends I have. Even if I can't make friends and have fellowship with AACF, I know I have friends I can count on still. Summer just got a bit slower, but I'll manage.

Stanley

Stuck in my head

Don't Know

I'm tired. I have a lot to write about and document about during these past few days, but I don't want to write about it now. I guess it'll just remain a draft for now, and perhaps I'll come back and write about it. I want to work on my fixie, but its so hard to find a road bike, perhaps I'm not putting enough effort in looking for one. I want to give up, but every time I see it on the street I want it again. Its hot in Riverside too, and I actually don't feel like writing.

Stanley

Quote:

"Always learn; never regret."
I like this one better.

Done

Done with Econ, well half of it anyways. I'm tired out early today, I ate sushi with Mike today but the old sushi chef left. I think he was the most comical of the 4 sushi chef, he always had good jokes to crack, or interesting stories to tell. I wonder what happened to him, maybe he got sick of cutting sushi everyday, talking to his customers, and drinking while he is at work. That must be...oh maybe that's it. I remember one time I went to grab some sushi, he was drinking with one of the customers. The customer insisted that he has a cup of Asahi beer, he modestly said no at first, but he was coaxed to doing so. Perhaps that's the reason he got fired, well that would suck. The other chefs are a little too mellow, I'm sure where ever he goes, he'll attract a good amount of customers. Its fun having him as your chef, he makes up interesting sushi creation and takes good care of his customer. I remember he was the one that recommended Mike and I the 'yellow tail'. I actually prefer it to 'salmon' because of the buttery taste it gives. Its pretty smooth, but its an acquired taste I guess. I realized not a lot of people enjoy raw fish at first, you have to eat a lot of it before it starts tasting any different. Anyways, we had a mellow dinner. Once again, Mike surprises me by eating over 15 'yellow tails'. I can never compete with that guy in fish, but I'm sure I could out eat him in steak/ribs/prime rib. Food4Less is actually pretty sketch; we went there to grab a couple of things after dinner. There were a lot of sketch characters that it feels kind of dangerous. This one family, well they aren't shady or anything, but it was so sad, they couldn't afford the groceries they bought. They had to return some of it because they just didn't have enough. It actually wasn't only one family customers, there are a lot of depressed families re-shelving food back because they can't afford it. Its saddening. DOTA a bit afterwards with the guys back home, it was fun only because I haven't played with them in a while. Its kind of surprisingly what a few months without doing something do to you. We were all pretty rusty, and I was like the worst on the team. Whatever, its not that important, it was pretty fun, I was too busy typing rather than playing actually. After two games, got tired, watch some interesting videos, and showered. And here I am, still typing because nothing much happened after dinner. Anyways, I'll call it a night. I'm done with Econ!
Fin
Stanley

Dumb; Econ

I hate Econ, it actually makes me feel pretty dumb. I finally understood what's going on recently, I've been spending 10 hours a week in class, but I learned it all near the time of the midterm. There is no hope for me in the Econ department. ):
I'll sleep early, wake up, attend discussion, study, then take the test. Can't wait until I'm done with this midterm.

Stanley

Sanity

Class 302, hanging out, fixing things, skateboarding, learning things, reading, studying, going to the gym, and a lot of other things. Are these the things that keep me sane here in Riverside? I don't know anymore, having all this is great, I'm never idle, but perhaps I'm burning out.
I don't know, the midterm is kind of scary as well because its coming up, soon. Honestly I miss my old study buddy for Economics, but due our circumstances I'm left to fend for myself. Its alright though, its just nice to have an intellectual equal (actually she was better in Econ than I was) to exchange thoughts and theories with.
I'm so busy, I need to STOP for a second. I'm disorganized by wanting to do so much, that I lose myself in the things I do. I gotta sit back and take a breather. Maybe that's why I tend to blog so much nowadays, it gives me that few moments that I need to make sure I'm on the right track. Is this how I want to spend my summer? I have more and more plans that I tack onto my list of things to do this summer, that I realized: am I biting more than I can chew. I want to accomplish something this summer, and not feel like I did everything but finished..nothing. I got to keep my vision straight, haha. Its nice to just blog away, I can always return and re-read whatever I have in my head. Sigh, summer is great, but I think I need to slow down my life just a little. My days pass by me too quickly that I hardly take the chance to enjoy the simple smoggy sunset that Riverside is known for, or take a walk on campus in the late afternoon when the sun is at its twilight, or even skate in the parking lot when the moon is at its fullest. Man, its already Tuesday, and I have plans for the entire week already. Back to life on the fast lane.

Stanley

Ignorance

Couldn't sleep well last night because of two things: The heat and my thoughts. This summer is making me go crazy! I think part of me hates facebook, because if I did not have an account I will never know that I'm not invited to a lot of events. Its kind of sad, but that's the way things work. Some people naturally enjoy one's company, but I guess not everyone wants you to be there. It kind of hurts, that's why ignorance is really bliss. I can't say ignorance is ever a good thing though, I know people who live off ignorance and really can't live for themselves. Well I guess that's a bit harsh, but you can't live in a shell forever right? Getting hurt, feeling hurt, and understanding the pain that comes after is what brings us together. No regrets? Those are powerful words, could I really say that?
Building friendships is a hard things to to. It usually is pretty easy for me, but I feel that once you find your niche, its hard to force yourself to another one. I can't say that my group of close friends was ever a huge circle, because personally I love smaller circles of friends. I can't handle exposing my entire personality to a huge group, its hard.
I don't want to admit defeat though, I will keep trying. Self-Invite, sigh. I need a push.

Stanley

Empty Space - Lifehouse

Tired

Wow, I slept for 12 hours. I need to study, but I'm going to go to the gym first. Heh. (:

Stanley

What a Saturday

This was the longest Saturday I had in my life, but its not like I didn't have fun.
I started my day at 4:30AM, where I got up, brush my teeth, and drove down to Diamond Bar. No traffic in the morning, but I felt kind of bad for being late. When I arrived, we left to the AA Flea Sale. We waited in like for 5 hours, and we shopped for 2 hours. It was an intense wait, the sun really did beat on our backs and left its mark. We all came back 2 shades darker, but 1 bag full of clothes. The other guys really loved the stuff from the sale, but I had difficulty finding things I like myself. Perhaps this wasn't for me, but I still had fun, and I'm glad I went. After we were done, we came back to Diamond Bar and picked up Grace. We went to Classroom 302 of the 8th time this week, well for me. We got the shave ice, and I finally tried all the flavors they had to offer, Mango Ice wasn't bad, but it was too...Mango-like. As soon as we finished we went back to Grace's house and watched Night in the Museum, it was alright. 9 o clock came around and we watched 8 different Fireworks all at once. It was nice, we played on the trampoline for the longest time until we all got tired. I learned two new games on the trampoline, haha. We ended the night with In and Outs and we brought it back to the Diamond Bar Park. That park, has a lot of memories, stirred up mix emotions. I've been hanging out at Diamond Bar and Rowland Heights lately, its strange...the places you want to run away from ends up being the place to run away to. Love Saturdays, love sunburns, love knowing I'm going to get a good night sleep tonight. If you are reading this Jeff, sorry I didn't make it to your party, hope you had a great one, I'm sure I missed out on the party of the century! :)

Stanley

New Plan

I don't know why I had I didn't publish the last blog before, oh I remember, there was like a glitch with the blog problem and I couldn't publish what I wanted to say. Anyways I want to go Whitewater Rafting this summer, I somehow got more money from Financial Aid and I decided to use it on a weekend trip to American River, I'll register the next time I go to the Student Recreation Center (SRC). Its kind of random but I remembered I always wanted to do this, but well never had the guts to do so, so now that the chance presented itself I'll take it. Enough thinking about it too hard, I'm going to do it, scared or not.
Its Friday night and I'm just well a little anxious. I have to leave in like two hours, but again, I'm really anxious. Going to an American Apparel Flea Sale, and I was so stoked about going, but I wonder what this awkward feeling is. Kind of weird, but it feels like I wasn't invited to this event and I kind of invited myself to it. But I guess in my fellowship, you have to self-invite yourself if you want to do anything. I guess it is hard to call up people to ask everyone if they wanted to go, so I guess I'll make the exception. I'll just start calling people to hang out. I guess I can't be catered to all the time, and maybe that's what it is. Man I forgot my sleeping bag, but I guess I'll make do with what I have.

Stanley

Wednesdays

I love Wednesdays.