A day at Day Street

Today, was different.
Yeah, today was different, I had to wake up early to turn in my midterm paper, but I found out that it was due at 9:30AM, so technically I could have showed up when class ended and slept in that day. Whatever, caffeine works wonders. I went to the gym myself today, but it started out as a bad day. I was just frustrated today, but I'm glad that I got over it. I went to EV at the Belltower today with Danny, that was fun. People are always encouraging, love and hate them. Afterward, I ended early on purpose so I could keep my promise to taking my friend to Day street. Well I had to go to Downtown Riverside to pick something up, but I somehow agreed to drive out of my way to Day Street to take my friend to buy her Halloween costume materials. Well, I guess it was the least I could do, she did pay for the parcel I picked up at Mrs. Tiggy Winkles? I forget what it was called. The weather was perfect today, I couldn't ask for better weather. Well maybe I could, lighter winds would be great. We did our shopping, but she decided I should ditch Thea 10 so we could just chill. I think that was possibly a decision I'm glad I was forced to make. We walked around, shopping here and there on Day Street, and it was kind of interesting. I should be quite bitter, I paid for the meal and a drink at Starbucks. But then again, she did pay for the parcel at Downtown Riverside...Haha, inside joke. I think I needed a day like today, for once I could be myself. Today, well I guess it is worth blogging about. I want to remember it, note to self: Don't forget the day at Day Street.

:)

Hmm, I haven't written in a while, but I have been really happy lately. I don't see no reason to be down, even if I have this dumb midterm paper that's not entirely hard, but rather time consuming. I got to stop procrastinating. Well that girl in Chinese, well I don't even think about her anymore, I failed and well that's it. I'm not even going to introduce myself, and I'm not going to talk to her. It's week 5, it has to be awkward to introduce myself now. But I really hate this, last year I had no fear in meeting new people, this year I'm in a little bubble I feel too comfortable to leave. Actually I have been writing a lot, just I enjoy writing in my journal, but I guess I will attempt to write more here. But reporting in, well there isn't much to report at the moment. Life is good, and I love it. Even if I'm struggling right now, I love how it just continues to move on and doesn't wait for me, at all. It's a start, but I'm excited to see how it ends. Funny, I should focus on living today, and not what I'm going to do tomorrow. Thrice concert coming up, but I don't know. I'm not that hyped up to go anymore, well I guess we'll see. I didn't see Jimmy for a while, hopefully nothing will change. I hope MW doesn't change too much either, sigh I miss the good old days. I miss the old MW. It's alright, at least I'll remember all the memories of it. Chances of seeing each other in the future is starting to slim down. People change right? Dang this is getting me down, whatever.
Peace.

The Beginning

Today/Tomorrow

I'm am procrastinating at the moment, but I feel slightly better and I decided I guess my life needs a reality check. I think I am just fooling myself sometimes with thoughts and fantasies. I guess I need a cold hit in the face with the reality stick. Anyways, I think I should stop thinking about tomorrow, or what is going to happen in the future, because well tomorrow isn't guaranteed.
"Everything will be okay in the end; if it's not ok, it's not the end."
Let's start.

The End

So, this is the end. I don't even know how to write this properly. Will it last? This awkward silence, I wonder how long we would last. Part of me is dead I guess, and I can't even express that in words properly. Oh gosh, what do I do. I'm a mess, a worse mess than I was before. Actually, I really do hate girls sometimes, the amount of heartbreaks and heartaches overwhelms the joy I receive from them. I guess I do need a break from them altogether. Can't two friends always stay friends? I guess I should just avoid them right now, I don't want this happen again. I don't want to be second place again. I'm sick of it, this is my curse.
Mistakes, well I guess I can't ignore them, but it takes a while for me to embrace them. Whatever, I could move on right? Even if that other half is gone at the moment, I need to get on with my life. What I did was for the best right? We both won't regret it right?
What is it, I don't get it. Did I not try hard enough, did I need to get down on my knees and beg for you to stay. I...I well. I guess I should have if I really thought it was worth it. But remember this, she let me go, so it's my turn to let go. But a part of me questions myself, could I still accept her in a different setting? Will I be willing to forgive her and take her back in if we are able to work this out in the near future...Oh gosh, I want to be true to my word, so I'll leave that unanswered for now.
Frick this ending. I think I'm going to laugh at myself in a couple of years, will this be a regret or a joke?

Frick

12:07 AM

I thought I was tired, really. I came back from Freshmen Bonding, and it was fun. I got to meet the wee little freshmen and hopefully made them feel a little bit more comfortable in the group setting. People has a toll over me, I get incredibly drained making small talk and attempting to meet everyone, I think I should cut down a little, but I find it much more entertaining to meet new people. It's like a double edge sword, if I don't meet them, it'll be awkward later, if I meet them now I get tired. Whatever. I decided to call it a night and go back to my apartment. My friend drove my car and she wasn't bad at all for a "first timer". Anyways, she didn't stall once, and the whole time I was expecting her to stall. That was interesting, she's a natural I guess, still shaky with the clutch, but not bad. We went up to my apartment and just talked, just about everything. It was an interesting conversation. It's incredible to know that you aren't alone in this world. Somewhere, someone is sharing the same pains and hurts as you are, and I guess I am lucky to have met my, well, friend in pain. We talked without respite for six hours, and before we know it, it's 6:36AM. Weren't we suppose to be tired? We decided to call it a night, I woke up with a headache.
Friends, huh I wonder if it's just an illusion at times.

Hopeless Love

In N' Out

Well, I have to just say it. I hate In N' Outs, I am sick of the food, and animal style fries makes me want to hurl. Oh well. Today was fun, oh gosh. I think the more I write in this blog thing, the better my days get. I started class at 1040AM, it was chill, we stayed for an hour and left early at 1130AM. After that we got to eat Fish Tacos! Well it was a Fish Taco, I ate only half because we were short on change, and my friend didn't want to break her twenty. It's okay, it whetted my appetite to eat Mexican Food, oh but how I miss Albertos. The 3:00AM run to Albertos, I don't think I'll ever forget that. It's how I want to picture myself doing with my friends when I'm older. Anyways, continuing on with my day, I got back to my apartment, ate some Mini Wheats, then went to Chinese class. Really, I think I am pathetic at times, I didn't do it, again. I got one day left, and I better do it. Well better not to say it, more walk, less talk. Well in this case, more talk and more walk... Eh, whatever. Ended Chinese class and we all splited separate ways, well actually I went with a couple of AACFers to the C-Store, didn't buy anything but had an interesting discussion about Protein Bars. I need to work out... After that, went grocery shopping with my roommate, we bought a bunch of junk food, I am sure we are going to end up eating junk all year. Then dinner at Brown's was amazing, homemade Mexican Food, well the food wasn't great, but I enjoyed the company, almost made me late to AACF.
AACF was great, I look forward to going every week, we ate at In N' Outs today, and that is when my day went sour.
Well, great part is we had a Dota game afterward, I didn't do well again, I need to quit playing Dota.
Night

Third post in a row...

Can you believe it? Third post in a row, must be a newity thing. I think people are like that. People always find a great love for their new passion, but that great passion slowly fades with time. So at the moment, all I'm thinking about is writing this in this blogpost. Well, I'm kind of glad only a few people know about this at the moment...I really don't have anything interesting to post, but I want to post because it's fun. Well let's talk about my day I guess.
I ditched Ethnic Studies, again. I ate an easy breakfast of Mini-Wheats and Calpico popsicles. I did my Ethnic studies article, which is really poorly written. Then I went to Chinese class, oh gosh. There is this cute girl that always sit by herself in the far right, but I haven't worked up the courage to introduce myself at the moment. A freshmen actually, and she is actually quite peculiar in the way that she dresses, but I guess I'm attracted to her. I should hurry and introduce myself though, the longer I push it back, the more awkward the first meeting will be. Oh dang, but she has a spell on me, because my confidence is swept clear off the floor when she's talking to me. Well, we did technically introduce each other in Chinese, but I don't think that counts actually. Well I will work on it, I'll do it by the end of the week. I know it'll be a regret not getting to know her, who cares if she doesn't like me, at least I could always look back and know that I took that chance. No regrets right?
Anyways, moving on to the rest of my day. I ate lunch at Jess' place today. It was fun, talking to Jess is always fun, especially when Danny is around too, it's so easy to laugh just about anything when we are all together. First time in Jess' apartment too, I haven't made the time to visit everyone yet, so that was fun. Her place is similar to the dorms, I don't like it, but her room is much bigger than mine. But Summer Ridge is still the best, it's much more homely. After that was Thea 10, but today it was pretty lame, I was just waiting for it to end. Dinner time! I always look forward to dinner, cooking is beginning to become a passion I enjoy. It's fun to cook for people, and to cook for myself as well. Kind of lame I know, but I think I want to learn to cook even more...It was hectic in the kitchen, but it was well worth it. I made garlic eggs today with green salsa, okay it wasn't the best of my creations but it was edible at least...
Class at 8PM sucks, that is all. But people like Kacey makes it fun. I'm glad that she is able to talk a lot about the class, at least one of us is paying attention. But Kacey is an interesting girl, white girls are always so foreign to me. They are so daring, so different, so talkative, and so fun. It's weird though, I don't think I have the confidence to date one though...Well she's out of my league anyways. She's a top sales associates for Fredericks of Hollywood, I bet she can pass as a model as well.
Well, to conclude my night, I finished up Econ 4 homework. It was an interesting day. I like today in the end.
That is all.

PR

Today, it went better than I thought it would. Actually better, despite the bad haircut which I utterly despise, I liked today because it was windy. It gave me the chance to wear my new jacket, so that was exciting. I went to Econ 4 class today, and surprisingly I actually paid attention. It helps having the book with me, well it's actually hard to write this when people are moving around my apartment. I guess I'm slightly distracted at the moment, but now, after leaving that on draft and returned from bowling, I am ready to write a bit more. Bowling was fun, I broke my PR and got 178! Four amazing strikes that bewildered me, but I held back the excitement. It'll break my concentration when I get too excited over something. I think my entries are pretty lame, but yeah night. Got an early class tomorrow.

Starting out...

Well, I guess this makes my first post...I always hated doing these blogs or xangas or livejournals, but I guess I want to retain my years in black and white. Yeah I know, this must be a common reason why most people start blogging, but I guess I want to try it out. It might help me feel better, worse, or just plain stupid, but well I guess I'll never know until I try.
So yeah, I'm currently suppose to be reading my Econ 4 textbook, but I read the wrong chapter, so here I am taking a short break for my vain search of knowledge. Things seem alright at the moment, but it does feel like somethings are going to fall apart. Friendships huh? What are they worth nowadays? Well, I guess we all shouldn't take friendship personal...Yeah I stole that from Anberlin. It's slightly true though, true friends are hard to come by, and when they do exist in your life, I find some way to just screw it all up. Beautiful, I love the way I run my life sometimes, thank God, well thank God there is a God who knows what He's doing, because sadly everything seems to suffer in my hands. Men, poor and extraordinary creatures. Well, I doubt anyone will read this, but hey, I will I think...if I manage to keep this up. I have another Journal where I am forced to write in, maybe I'll just end up printing it all out from this blog-thing. Well night, I guess.
(By the way, how the heck do I indent on this thing)